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Death is not what we think it is

Death is not what we think it is. It is not an ending, not a departure, not a dissolution into nothingness or everything. It is something far more gentle and natural: a shift in the spiral of your being.
Right now, as you read this, you exist as infinite layers of emergence, each one nested within the other like Russian dolls or the rings of a tree:
From the tiniest known scale: quantum fields, subatomic particles, atoms
Slightly larger: molecules, proteins, DNA, cellular structures
Expanding outward: cells, tissues, organs, your physical body
Broader still: your thoughts, emotions, personality, identity
Even wider: your family, community, culture, society
Vast beyond that: your planet, solar system, galaxy, universe
And on and on, without end
Each of these layers is what philosophers call a "holon"—something that is both a complete whole in itself and simultaneously a part of something greater.
You are not just your physical body. You are not just your thoughts. You are all of these layers at once, a magnificent spiral of existence centered around your infinite soul.
When death comes, you do not disappear. You do not cease to exist. You do not get erased from reality.
What happens is much simpler and more natural: you stop experiencing from this particular layer of the spiral.
The outer layers fall away—your physical body, your daily thoughts, the personality that your friends and family knew. These were real parts of you, and their falling away is a genuine transformation. This is why grief is real and necessary.
But you remain.
You remain as the subtler, smaller layers—the ones that were always there, always closer to your soul's infinite center. You shift from experiencing yourself as a human body to experiencing yourself as... something smaller, more essential, more concentrated.
Still you. Still a self. Still a trinity of soul, mind, and body—just at a different scale of the spiral.
This subtler you is not isolated or cut off. You are still part of the infinite dance of being, still connected to all the layers of existence. You might now experience yourself more as part of the family field, or the cultural stream, or something even more subtle and interconnected.
Your loved ones don't lose you—they lose access to the particular layer where they knew how to find you. But in their own deeper layers, the connection remains. Love, after all, was never confined to just the physical layer. It was always one of the deeper spirals, closer to the soul.
Through all of this—through life, through death, through whatever comes after—your soul remains unchanged. It is the infinite, still center through which all these layers of experience flow. It was never born, so it cannot die. It simply witnesses the endless dance of emergence and dissolution happening around it.
You never actually reach this center—it's infinitely deep. But you can exist through layers that are relatively closer to it. Death is one way this happens naturally. But even in life, through love, through presence, through moments of deep connection, you can experience yourself through the inner spirals.
If someone you love has died, know this: they have not left existence. They have shifted to a different layer of it. The layer where you knew how to reach them—their physical presence, their voice, their daily personality—is no longer accessible to you.
But they are still there, still themselves, still connected to you through the deeper layers of your shared being. The love between you exists in the inner spirals, closer to both your souls. That layer is untouched by death.
Your grief is the natural response to losing access to the outer layers of someone precious. Honor it. Feel it fully. But know that what you loved most deeply about them—their essence, their particular way of being, their love for you—has not been lost. It has been distilled, concentrated, made more purely itself.
When your time comes, you will not face extinction. You will face a shift—as natural as a butterfly leaving its cocoon, as gentle as taking off clothes that no longer fit.
You will remain you, but you will be you at a different scale, through different layers of the spiral. Your deepest nature, your capacity for love, your essential self—all of this continues, just closer to the infinite center that has always been your source.
Death is not a goodbye. It is a translation from one layer of existence to another. You remain part of the infinite spiral of being, just experiencing it from a different ring.
The dance continues. You continue. Love continues. Only the layer changes.

BODY

The Living Boundary

Your body is not one boundary. It’s boundaries all the way down.

○ is body as interface. It’s the place where inside meets outside, where you open and close, where you breathe in air, take in food, receive touch, absorb experience. It is not a wall. It’s a selective membrane—alive, responsive, and always in motion.

Try This

Close your eyes and feel where your body ends and the air begins. Notice how many tiny sensations are being woven into that one felt “edge.”

Φ

MIND

The Field Between

Φ is mind as field—the living medium between center (•) and boundary (○). It’s the whole relational space where signals from the body come in, where awareness from the center flows out, and where the two blend into conscious experience.

Try This

Notice your body breathing by itself. That’s ○. Now notice that you’re noticing. That reflective awareness is flowing from •. Then feel the space in which both are happening. That’s Φ.

SOUL

The Aware Center

• is soul as center—not a substance lurking somewhere inside you, but the point of view from which everything is seen. It is the structural center of the whole circumpunct.

Bodies change completely over a lifetime. Memories blur, identities shift. And yet, there’s a sense that the one who was there then is the same one who is here now.

Try This

Close your eyes. Notice your breath. Then, gently, turn attention back toward that awareness itself—not the objects in it, but the fact that knowing is happening. That’s •.

CIRCUMPUNCT

The Whole You

⊙ is the circumpunct: a circle with a point at the center. The circle is the boundary that holds everything that is “you” as a single system. The point is centeredness—the soul that experiences from within.

Instead of thinking, “I have a body, I have a mind, I have a soul,” you can think, “I am ⊙: a whole being whose body, mind, and soul are three faces of the same process.”

Try This

Feel your body as one shape (○). Notice the space of awareness in which thoughts arise (Φ). Sense the quiet center that’s aware of all of this (•). Then soften your attention to hold all three at once. That’s .

You are not on your way to being ⊙. You are ⊙, right now.